Pretending To Be A Genius

So you all haven’t heard from me in a while, I apologize. I’ve been going through a inexplicably difficult time recently, and I was fearful that my depression was returning. As you all can probably imagine, that fear was debilitating on its own right. Add to that fear, the increasing pain in my back, and…

Life’s Hurdles

The past few days, I haven’t really been writing, or keeping up with my socials. I also have felt the all too familiar “weight” returning to my life. Which honestly, as I’ve written before, scares the absolute sh*t out of me. Yet, through what I have learned in therapy, I think that I will be…

One Reason

I often find myself sitting on the couch watching tv, or laying in bed scrolling through my socials, and I am ALWAYS reminded about how awful people are. I think it has to do with how connected the world is these days. It seems I can’t go a single day without something reminding me about…

When Depression Fades

Y’know, from my personal experience, there are a lot of things people don’t talk about when it comes to depression. First things first, as I always say, depression is a normal human emotion. Depression takes over when just sadness isn’t enough. However, severe depressive disorder is not the same as depression. I was diagnosed with…

Flipped Upside Down

A reader recently brought this up to me in a comment on a guest post of The Bipolar Writer Collaborative Blog. I never was really able to put it into words until they did it for me. I have live nearly my entire life depressed. My mother doesn’t believe that I was depressed during my…

Road Of Recovery

As you all know, I underwent ECT treatment, from January ’19 to July ’19 and it has essentially cured my depression. Although, I much prefer to say that I am in remission, because depression is a sneaky illness, and can pop back up without warning. The one thing that I wanted to bring up is…

Nothing To Lose

It’s funny, when people say that they have nothing to lose, it’s usually in a negative context, but I see it differently. If you know about me and my mental health, well…it was shit. I mean, when I left my job in January, I was at rock bottom. I was sucidal almost constantly. I really…