I Am Not A Good Person

There are few times when the veil I have created around myself begins to come undone. That may sound rather cryptic, because well, it is, even for me. However, I will do my best to explain what I mean, especially while I am in a moment of clarity. Ever since I was young, I’ve had…

Visible Pain

As I wrote in my last article, the decision to live or die, can be summed up as Life Vs Pain. Where one compares the “weight” of their life as a whole, and on the other side, all of their pain. This simple “contest” of which is greater, was often the reason I contemplated suicide….

Life Vs Pain

If I were to sum up why people commit suicide to a single reason, it would simply be Life vs. Pain. What do I mean by this? Well, just imagine life as a balance. One one side you have life as a whole, including your dreams, your family, your job(s), etc. On the other side,…

The Pain Of Wisdom

They say, that as you get older you become more wise. I don’t know who “they” are, but I think it has something to do with life experience, not age. I unfortunately, now without the cloud of depression taking up all the space in my head, I am left with more room to notice things…

One Reason

I often find myself sitting on the couch watching tv, or laying in bed scrolling through my socials, and I am ALWAYS reminded about how awful people are. I think it has to do with how connected the world is these days. It seems I can’t go a single day without something reminding me about…

Addicted To Pain

There is a thought that I had the other day that scared the living hell out of me, “I miss being depressed”. I was like WTF! I certainly DO NOT miss being depressed, I’ve never felt better in my life and I want to keep it that way. Yet, this thought does warrant some deeper…