Visible Pain

As I wrote in my last article, the decision to live or die, can be summed up as Life Vs Pain. Where one compares the “weight” of their life as a whole, and on the other side, all of their pain. This simple “contest” of which is greater, was often the reason I contemplated suicide….

The Pain Of Wisdom

They say, that as you get older you become more wise. I don’t know who “they” are, but I think it has something to do with life experience, not age. I unfortunately, now without the cloud of depression taking up all the space in my head, I am left with more room to notice things…

Why Compare?

This is a point that my mother brings up rather often, but rarely follows herself. My siblings and I are constantly comparing ourselves to one another. None of us like to put in hard work, me because of my depression, my sister because of her BPD, and my brother because he’d rather spend his time…

You Come First

I already know what you’re thinking. “Even if I wanted to put myself first, my illness(es) won’t let me!” Believe me, I know. I have been in a position, still partially am, where I can’t put my own desires first. Well, I don’t have a job currently, so that means lots of time, but no…

How I deal with Anger

So, first things first, this is how I deal with anger. I 100% know that I’m wrong, and I hope that none of you see this as an example to follow. What I do is still steeped in my old ways of depression. To explain, when I get angry I often lose control of myself…

Family Stress

So, this is my first real blog post in I don’t know how long. The motto here at Out of My Mind is to keep everything unfiltered, and raw, straight from my mind to yours. However I can promise you that I will keep profanities at a bare minimum, since I don’t really like to…